May 1st

Labour day. A day off where most of the working world will have to work double hard tomorrow to pay for it. 

I am not counting but there seem to be more obstacles to staying positive. I am well practiced in this. Turn off the alarm and tell the voice that says shut up to shut up. Splash my face with cold water, drink a tea. Dog cuddles, a double stroke of lipstick and go.

I manage and sometimes I feel I am making a connection, instrumental in increasing a student's learning and self-confidence but often it is forced. A by-product of working for a company that has not given a pay rise in seven years, that applauds itself on how much money it has made whilst its contractors are on a zero hours deal. there is always someone waiting to step into my shoes so there is no need for investment in its workforce. 

Welcome to the future. Some people have been here for  a very long time. 

Walking my dogs in the hills or challenging myself creatively are the solutions to this tug of dissatisfaction. But that creativity does not pay my bills. That is my goal this year. To reach more people. I have done the footwork and many more that the 10,000 hours.

Besides I am going away for the weekend, a cheap mini break where the big waves pound the shore. I am going with two friends and between us we will have seven dogs. I will come back full of new ideas and photographs and shared stories. 

I am running workshops too. More about those later.